Burning...

So, I'm a dork. My room mate told us to PLZ eat this food that she had from some place that she ate yesterday. And I gladly toke a bite yesterday and I'm not gonna lie, it was good, too good infact, I couldn't eat anymore. Why? Well, let me just tell you, it was spicy! Me and spicy foods do not get along. You see, spicy foods and I, aren't friends. And I had to quickly find a piece of bread to simmer down the flames of fiery.
Well, today, I did the smart thing and had some of that same food I had yesterday that made my mouth breath fire. Yeah, that was smart. I went for the tortilla, nnnnope, and found bread and that calmed down the dragon in me. You see, I was thinking, well, maybe I need to get myself use to eating spicy foods. And it would be good if I start now. Ya know, its all good. I can do this....Well, of-course, that didn't work. You kidding me, only for like a second and then I changed the food to a quesadilla. Although, quesadilla's in El Salvador are different than the Mexican Quesadilla and sooo much more better.

At any rate, that was my two interesting thing that happened today and well, partly yesterday.

I did, however, really enjoyed what was talked about in church today. I also really enjoyed the stories that were told. They were definetly inspired with the spirit strongly, so I can hear those words. I needed to hear all that was said. Thanks to the loving people in my ward and for abiding with the spirit to speak and touch on subjects of things, that I personally needed to hear.

I am also very greatful for the beauty of the earth. And to able to watch a lighting/thunderstorm yesterday. It was gorgeous. I love that I get to live here on earth and experience some marbleless things. I am soo grateful to have an opportunity to live in the gospel and know of the truths. I am greatful for how the Lord blesses us. And how He truey works in mysterious ways. And I say that in the name of Jesus the Christ. Amen.
Love ya all,
me

Thinking out loud

Well, today has been a great day. I received news that I can work tomorrow which makes me happy. Weird, I know. But I like my job and I really don't mind being there. I have been doing quite a bit of learning. Its been quite the experience there. Always something funky going on at work, never a dull moment.
So, I was thinking. I hate it when people judge you right away. Its annoying. I mean, ok, you don't get to chose who you are gonna grow up with and what you kind of a life you'll get to have. There is a plan for each and everyone of us and each one is unique and different in their own way. Which is great, because to be honest I wouldn't want mines to be the exact same as the next person. I wouldn't be able to learn and grow from those life experiences that you are suppose to learn and grow.
I was talking to my mom and dad on the phone the other day...and well, I unsuccessfully tried to get them to come visit me in the state that I am currently living at. But my mom, saids its too much of a drive so I told her, well, go on a airplane, its faster...I still got a negative on that one...so much for trying....tisk tisk...
Well, I finally said, well, if you go to Vegas I'll meet you there, its half way for the both of us and I have been wanting to go for awhile, so when do you want to meet there? My mom was please with the idea. I remember going there a lot as a kid and watching loads of free shows, arcade games, window shopping, talking to people, rides and all that jazz. It was a lot of fun when I went, I kept myself really well entertained and really busy. I love just walking around town. Its nice, I mean when you have someone with you anyway. Because some people they are just plain creepy and I love being with family as well as friends!
So, I was telling a friend about going...and really, I wish I hadn't. They made a judgement based on my decision of going to Vegas. Its a bunch of crap what I was told. I was pretty close to just walking away from the room. You know what, its lame what she was telling me. Ya so what, I didn't grow up being a member of the church. Somedays, yes, where harder than others. But, the hell with it, I try to remember all the happy moments because those are the moments that I want to take with me forever!!
I love my family soo much. And they are my number one! They always come first to me, not friends family does. I actually was having a conversation with my crazy niece earlier and we were both reminiscing about the good old days and how dumb we were. It was pretty funny of some of the things we have done. But you know, some people change and some people never do and if they do its not always early on in their life right after high school.
I wish everyone would just be ok with meeting new people and fine with getting to know others without caring ..."Oh, they might be judge me."

Pure sillyness...

So, today in my Human Life Span Psychology Class, we were talking about the different stages of life that you get too experience. And well, I totally started thinking of things that I did that was just pure silly. A lot of those things are embarrassing story, that if you have spoken to my parents... especially my dad, they will tell you of all the stupid things that I have done that are well, pretty embarrassing... its the funniest thing ever. And you know, normally I won't share any but it brought a smile and a chuckle to me that I can't just hold it on, I must tell. Now, don't get me wrong embarrassing stories are fun to hear but I can't tell you all of them because that would be just plain embarrassing and I will have to go find a corner and think to myself....why? Why do i do this to myself? I don't understand... But I guess I will be doing that later.
So, first I have to say. I am the baby in my family. And well, my siblings are half siblings and my mom is married to my dad. ( I promise this ties into my story)... Well, since I am the baby and REALLY far apart in age with my siblings, (to give you an idea how far apart, my third oldest/youngest sibling is 7 yrs older than me but the oldest is 12 yrs older than me) . Well, I really wanted a younger sibling like you know maybe a baby brother or sister... more so a baby bro. Well, so I go upto my mom ( I can't remember the exact age I was, I'm gonna have to ask my mom), and well for some reason or other I somehow had the impression that if you eat a lot of food you can get pregnant. Well, now as you can tell and your probably are laughing your butt off. I asked my mom, well maybe more of a suggestion than a question.... here goes.... "Mom, you know, maybe if you eat more you can have another baby. That would be cool." Now, mind you I was pretty small and you know not very bright at the time. And because my mom, being my mom and trying not to get me upset for my not knowing how baby's are made, just said. "Ok, honey..." with a smirk on her face really badly wanting to laugh but can't cause I'm a innocent little child.
Well, so I later left and I still asked her to do the same thing as time passed and then I finally stopped asking my mommy dearest to have another child because my mom didn't want to have a 5th child, four was obviously enough for her, especially since we all drive her boonkers! And sometimes she'd wish she was invisible but she knows that its funny to watch us do the silly things that we do and sometimes still do and how we say some pretty strange out of this world stuff so, of course my mom decided its awesome to be a mom!! Specially when you get to tell the stories of all the dumb things that their kids get to do infront of them when they are older just to get them, you know a little red in the face...(you know embarrassed!!). Yeah, well, its good times. So, thats just one of many silly things I have done as a child. I think I like it and will call it my own...hehe...nerdy, i know but it takes one to know one..... I guess?!? hmm...well, I should go to bed. I am starting to get tired. So,ah, good night everyone! I hope you enjoyed my story cause I am sticking to it.

Love and peace,
me =)

Sunday's Best.

Ok, so, to begin from my previous blog. There was actually two blogs that I wrote that are were nothing. And I erased them. Sorry.
Moving on, today has been a beautiful day. The sun shining bright and the blue skies, uh, breath taking. Specially the sun set from last night. That was beautiful. I love watching the sun set. Its really nice. Anyway, today at church...a lot of the lesson's that were giving were wonderful lesson filled with the Spirit ever so strongly. I love it when that happens. Its really nice. There is one thing that I miss about Sundays and that is spending time with my family. Sitting at the table and laughing of our silly moments that we have in life or the silly things that my nephew would say.
In fact, yesterday I spoke to my nephew and well, his such an adorable little one. He and I had a short and bittersweet conversation. Bittersweet?? Well, he like everytime I talk to him the first question that comes out of his mouth "why don't you come visit me?" It makes me feel so sad (bitter part...because I miss him so much) and (the sweet) "you can go to the bank, ask them for money." ...."Sorry, but they don't have any money"being my respond. Fabian (my nephew) well, why don't you go to the store?" ...me..."cause hun they are poor just like me." Fabian... "well go to the bank than." (soo cute, his so innocent) me "ok, I guess I will try them."
I love that kid soo much. His a doll. I wish he were here. But anyway, thats a little bit of the conversation that we had. Bittersweet.
My family is amazing, the church is wonderful and Heavenly Father divine. He works in marvelous ways and He knows how to touch our lives. I love being a member of this wonderful church that I am a member of. I enjoy life and I love how peaceful I am at this moment in time because I know my Saviour loves me and will take care of me.

Calming...

Today I went to the Temple, however, the experience wasn't as great as it could have been. The events that happened last night was not the best. I wish they would have been but they really weren't. The sad part the company was not great at all and the conversations was the worst. I wish I could have made myself invisible. Does anyone ever have those feelings when things aren't going right? I mean, yeah, the people that you generally hang out with usually are awesome but other times, you just wish you were having yourself a good old time but with other people? Thats what happened last night. Normally its good to hang out with my friends but this time was not one of those times. So, anyway, I went to the Temple and it wasn't how it could have been, it could have been better but last nights event really really bothered me that, that it even affected my attendance at the Temple. Beforemy room mate and I went I told her that I would wait for her and that I may be outside so keep a look out because I knew she would take longer than me. So, I went to my car and was really trying to clear my mind and wanted to really badly calm my thoughts and not feel bothered anymore.
As I was in my car to get my cell phone (so I can call my family back home), my church music started playing and that started to help me not to think of anything and started to calm my thought process (I hope this makes sense to you cause it does to me). So I called my mom and I started talking to her and then I asked her if I could talk to my grandpa and I am seriously glad I spoke to my grandpa, he just knows how to make you feel happy again and he saids the right words to calm his kids down. My grandpa is like my dad only better because his just an amazing grandpa! My grandpa is a father of 12 kids and he knows what to say and when to say things at the right time to his children, grandchildren and great grandchildren. His the cutest 82 yr old man ever. And sometimes you want to tell him to not go too crazy because he might hurt himself because his such a kid at heart. I love my grandpa!! I love my family too!
I am so glad I decided to call my family, they are awesome, they always help when I need it the most. I needed it today and I got the help that I needed without them knowing. Its calming to just hear a familiar voice and to know that, that familiar loving voice is your family member that cares for you so much. Its calming and its nice to have them because we can go through the rest of the day knowing that because their are wonderful people in our lives that love us. I wanna apologize for the last two or three blogs i wrote. They were worth nothing and were random thoughts that came to my mind. In fact, I will be erasing them because I don't like them.
But anyway, I AM glad for a Heavenly Father that cares and knows just what to do to give us comfort and who to direct us to. He knows exactly who we should call and who to talk to when we need a shoulder to lean on. I am glad for the precious moments that we get to enjoy. I love Him SOO very much! And I say these things in the name of Jesus the Christ. Amen.

Biology Class

So, today has been a pretty good crummy day. What do mean? Well, let me tell ya, I have been sick for the last couple of days...pretty much since Friday and I finally started feeling better just yesterday. Gosh, its been wicked! I HATE, HATE being sick. But I was sick alright, I really don't know why I was soo sick but sick nonetheless. So, anywho, I made myself go to work on Tues. and Wed. (just to make myself presentable and earn some money cause it would be bad news for me to not have enough money on my paycheck for pay day, its no bueno to have small pay checks). Well, today, I was finally feeling excellent, so excellent that things kinda started falling apart at work. No good, eh. Well, that happened and then I got a call that I wanted to scream by the time I was done, it put the cherry on the cake. I'm going into collections because well if people would listen to me a little more and stop thinking that I am too young to know whats good for me, that call could have been avoided, lets just leave it at that.
So...on to Biology. This is not going to be boring I promise. During my bio class, ( this class actually calmed my nerves down and I was relax and happy after, thank goodness!!) well, we were talking about industrial revolution and the population growth. So, the reason that there was such a rise of a population growth was and this was somewhere in the 1800's was because for 1) Industrial Revolution and 2) Modern medicine & medicine growth. So, industrial revolution....okay, yeah, its a good thing....but think about it. But right now because of industrial revolution that is still going on ok.....for example: in my old neighborhood it was a small city, not a lot of people and not a lot of houses or building and had a bit of farming of fruits and veggies. Well, go look at it now, the industry is ruining the vegetation, good soil, messing up the hills and making them to homes, stores,and corporate offices. And well messing with the natural beauty of the earth. Its polluting the earth. Its annoying! I mean, here you have all these great industries that either make it or fail to make the right sales or go the wrong way of making business. You have to be smart in order to start of business and also how you run it! You don't make the right moves, it goes down hill pretty fast. You scam someone, you have a fatty law suit glaring at you! You are smart on how you hire, pay, run the business, spread the word and make it something that your consumer's are going to want and want more of....you'll do great. One small move gone wrong... say good bye to what was your good sha-shing/bling bling. You see a lot of those happening even more so, I've noticed anyway, that each time a new business is built on top of the land that the business had gone wrong previously, and the new business, a good chunk of it anyway, will go down too. Why? I have no idea. Its interesting though. I wonder what the stats are to that. It makes me think, what do people do on those things? I mean really. Why build where you know its not going to pull through? why not go where it will be more popular and on demand? Hmm, only God knows, its true, He really does know. He is an all knowing God. Smarter than us sad humans. Sad...I mean when we make silly mistakes. He knows why we do the stupid things that we do in life and how come we never learn. Its a life learning process. And hopefully we eventually do learn from our mistakes and not make them again. Well, I would like to write more but its pass my bed time. I need to get up early for work. So, have a good night ya'll! And I hope this make's sense cause it does to me...atleast in my mind it does. Maybe its all gibberish. Oh,well. Later!

Trying to figure things out...

So, here I am at home pondering life and the things that have been thrown at me. I keep wondering, am I doing the right thing at this time in my life? I don't know where to go and how to go about things. Heavenly Father, has already answered my question and yet I haven't done anything about it. I like my current job but I don't feel sufficient enough to even be there. I am excited that I was able to put in a fight to teach at the high schools and that we got in but I don't feel like I have accomplished all that I must accomplish at this time. The Lord has already prepared my path and now its my turn to act on it. And to work on my part. I recognize that.
Well, so what do I? I ponder and ask....and ponder and wonder; what the heck am I doing just sitting here being dumb?!?! Ahhhh!! Its fustrating. Well, right now I am actually preparing our FHE lesson. I got up sick today, and I have been for the last three days. So, I basically haven't really eaten at all. Well, I actually only have eaten once Sat., Sun, and today. So, it has left me without energy. I don't know what to do right now but I do know that I need to trust my Saviour to do what is right and that I must act appropiately in order to be given an answer to go to the right direction. Heaven's know what I will do next and what is most important. I know also need to get myself energy to do whatever or else that will mean no good.
What's strange is, I haven't felt this sick for a long time. My body has been achy, stomach craps, no energy and well, no desire to do anything and I have been totally anti-social. I am normally not like this. I hope I am better to work tomorrow. Cause I HATE being sick!!! Its the worst thing in the world! Well, anyway, that's all I have for today.