Friday, September 12, 2008

Food for Thought...

Well, hello, I have been home for the last two hours and all I have done is hear music, clean, dance while cleaning, cook and well, thats it. Its been sooo boring here at home! I hate that I don't have any family around but then when I go home, I realize why I am not living there any more. Sad, huh?

Well, I have been getting home sick, which always happens when you haven't been back where your most comfortable and around the people you love the most. You don't realize what you got until its gone. And when its gone, you work that much more harder to get it back or to go back. My family, my awesome little nephew is back home along with my two best friends and I miss them a lot.

I know, that I enjoy being with some of the people back home (here in Utah) but people in my ward really haven't tried to get to know me. They are good people, don't get me wrong but its soo lame being here when people don't even try, its almost a waist of time. I like being myself but sometimes I can't and I end up being super quiet and don't act like I normally with my best friends or family because some people just aren't open to different such as being loud and doing things at the sper of the moment, being spontanious and just living the dream! They seem to be too stuck in their comfort zone that different is too much for them. I guess, well you can, I am stuck in "the happy valley's bubble" which sucks. I mean people seriously, is being stuck in your bubble is that really exciting? Seriously, live a little. People are too afraid for to change, get a change of pace, new scenary. I guess, you can say I am just too fustrated with somethings. I miss my California. I miss my family, my friends, my nice weather, my everything I left behind and yet I am suppose to be here, there is more work to be do here and more growing and I pressume I will learn those things that I need to learn as the time comes and I am prepared to. I sometimes just want to cry though but I don't because well, I am not going to talk about why I just don't.

When I was in California, I explained to my two dear friends that I felt welcomed being home, when I heard the lady yelling at the passenger, "don't you go putting your stuff in my spot! Its the driver's spot!" It was hilarious! I along with some other passengers started laughing because really thats LA for ya. And no, we weren't laughing because the poor gentleman did that but more because it made me realize what I haven't seen or heard for a while. And the gentleman, the poor man, was still left confused all he wanted to do is sit down and go to his home.

Ok, I know I jump around a lot but its because that is how my mind works. And really there's not much I can do about it, its my ADD, I'm jumpy in a way that I have a hard time thinking straight but I get things done...

So, moving on to another story, It was funny yet so adorable that my nephew came upto me when I finally made my arrival to my sister Cloud's home, he was just SOOO excited to see his Auntie and say.."Where were you? I was even yelling out your name because I miss you!!!" Aww, it felt sooo good to see my cutie pie! His just soo adorable!

Well, I of course started to take pictures of my family. And well, my nephew made sure that I put up his picture and let the world know that he is my PROUD little nephew and he specifically told me to put this one up and show everyone whom he is: His the families amazing little spongebob square pants!*

I have to admit, I was laughing pretty hard when I saw him wear this. It made my day, it goes to show how little things may be and how sweet kids are and what a great roll they play in our lives on a daily basis. I had a lot of fun seeing my family and even the annoying ones. haha...j/k. I still love them, I love everyone in my family all the same.

I love that my family is from El Salvador and that they are just soo awesome!

Anywho, I toke pictures of my sister, she is soo funny, we always make funny faces to each other to make each other laugh; it calls for good times. We always laugh at the silly things we have done in life and talk about our past and what we did and how we got away with some stuff.
Its so funny how things are and how things work and work out to be. Being at home made me feel good, I got rejuvenated. It was always to see the pictures of my sweet grandparents. I toke a picture of them, a picture of a picture...
they are the most cutest couple ever. So loving and generous. I pray to be such a great example as they have been to me.

Even, within my fustrations, I have to remember that things will work out. Its not easy to do, by any means. Today has been a really great day. I would like it to stay that way or even get better! I love having good days. I love being able to reminisce about the silly things in life and some pretty great embarrassing moments that happen either with friends or family and sometimes even perfect strangers.

I did take lots of pictures of Cali and some of my favorite people too. But I should go, my knee is being a stinker and I am having shooting pains. That all has to do with learning how to roller blade...thats another story for another day.

Have a great day! =)


elegyrl said...

You are cool! Don't ever change!~ Love ya girl!!! You wanna know somethings funny.... since I posted my shadow post, both you and Renee posted blogs about nephews :) I started a trend this week! :)

elegyrl said...

HEY.... you took off your new blog about the roomate situation! I am glad you finally got to talk directly to the landlord and I hope it is all going to be worked out and repaired soon! Miss ya! Oh and sorry I didn't call you back earlier... I had gotten another phone call than got dictracted than Toni got here and it kerpt going on from there and then I remembered kinda late! :) Please forgive me!