It hurts. Its not fun, I know its not meant to be fun. It painful. Its hurts more when you know its coming only because Heavenly Father prepares you for it and you cry all day because you know and you pray it doesn't come but it needs to because its for the best. And though your hurting all over, you wonder what to do with yourself? Where should I go? How can I be numb to this? What can I do to make things right? But you don't have an answer to any of the questions but still think if them regardless.
But then yet you try to deal with it and take life by its horns. Can it get easier? I hope so.
P.S. If you really want to know whats happening, call me.