Monday, June 2, 2008

Trying to figure things out...

So, here I am at home pondering life and the things that have been thrown at me. I keep wondering, am I doing the right thing at this time in my life? I don't know where to go and how to go about things. Heavenly Father, has already answered my question and yet I haven't done anything about it. I like my current job but I don't feel sufficient enough to even be there. I am excited that I was able to put in a fight to teach at the high schools and that we got in but I don't feel like I have accomplished all that I must accomplish at this time. The Lord has already prepared my path and now its my turn to act on it. And to work on my part. I recognize that.
Well, so what do I? I ponder and ask....and ponder and wonder; what the heck am I doing just sitting here being dumb?!?! Ahhhh!! Its fustrating. Well, right now I am actually preparing our FHE lesson. I got up sick today, and I have been for the last three days. So, I basically haven't really eaten at all. Well, I actually only have eaten once Sat., Sun, and today. So, it has left me without energy. I don't know what to do right now but I do know that I need to trust my Saviour to do what is right and that I must act appropiately in order to be given an answer to go to the right direction. Heaven's know what I will do next and what is most important. I know also need to get myself energy to do whatever or else that will mean no good.
What's strange is, I haven't felt this sick for a long time. My body has been achy, stomach craps, no energy and well, no desire to do anything and I have been totally anti-social. I am normally not like this. I hope I am better to work tomorrow. Cause I HATE being sick!!! Its the worst thing in the world! Well, anyway, that's all I have for today.

1 comment:

elegyrl said...

Feel better soon! I agree life sucks when you are sick...anmd for me its even worse when i am sick and having to work, trying to take care of other sick people.... it is a horrible endless lame-o cycle! I know ya know I love ya, I just wanted to remind ya! :)