Yes, I am still alive! Woohoo!

Ok, so, I don't have super amazing news about me. Well, I did go on vacation and that was amazingly fun! Especially taking care of an adorable 6 month old baby and having fun chasing his little sister around the house. Kids are fun and they say the darnest things at times...

So, anyway, I went to this little town that nobody really knows about and its outside of St. George and there is one post office where everyone that lives in that small town gets their mail. Its awesome! And not only that, I actually got to check out Zion's National Park and Kolob Canyon, which by the way, if you ever get a chance to go...DO IT!! Its soo worth it, its amazingly gorgeous!And yes I know, I am not using proper english but oh well its my blog, I don't care, its fun making a sentence that words should just not be there....i guess...lol! =P (hmmm....no wonder my cell phone wouldn't let me do that word (gorgeous), I forgot the e..haha...thats funny) Anyway, yeah, the family that I was with showed me around and I played lots of games and kept some of the 9 to 11 kids busy while their parents were doing other stuff which for me was no big deal.

So, I pretty much realized that after this 9 day trip full of fun...that I need to start cracking on the dating scene and stop being shy when I am around people I don't know and just try to meet new people without being scared what they think of me. Cause what it comes down to, is that I really just need to be me! I don't like being the girl that is over bearing or intimidating and I also don't like explaining or saying my job title at times because its like this huge fancy name but I don't even get paid as much as I could get paid. And really, the job title doesn't explain who I am and say what type of personality I have. But I know I have noticed that when I am around my friends that I am totally comfortable with... I can be pretty loud, silly and fun to be around..and sometimes I embarrass some friends cause I do things that make some of them say, I don't know that girl..and a lot of those times they are laughing when they are saying that, too. But when it comes to being in a big crowd that I don't know anyone...that all goes away...cause all of the sudden I turn to be this super shy chic and all of sudden doesn't have anything to say, nothing interesting to talk about. But really I am full of useful AND useless information. I am random. I laugh at stupid stuff all of the time, some stuff people think that they are not funny but for some odd strange reason I sometimes laugh so hard at what people say (even those things that are not meant to be funny but seem like they are to me (don't ask me why...but..)...I have to make myself go outside so I can breathe and make my stomach stop hurting and my eyes stop crying of joy and of whatever silliness was said or done. Its a funny sight.

And I know I am basically a nerd. I am not ashamed of it at all. I know I am and I don't mind embracing it. And I can talk about just anything but I just chose not, too. And I chose to not to make friends with other cause I just don't know anyone. It always takes someone I don't know to come upto me to talk to me to get me to talk, hence, why I loved my callings at church that made me go up to people I don't know and forces me to get to know others cause it gets me out of my comfort zone and allows me to make new friends. I just wish I would be a little more on the social side and less shy. So, yeah...

So...wow, most of that was just me rambling and thinking outloud. Sorry, but oh well. Its basically the truth. There is no way getting around the truth other than just facing the facts. I am not gonna lie but the dating game sucks here...at least where I am living. I can't wait to move on to another area and I hope where there is people more my age and I hope that I can stop being so stinken shy and just open up and have fun as well as date more or atleast get asked out on dates rather than me asking guys out like I have been. Which not that that's a bad thing but I would like it if the tables would turn alittle. What do I do? I dunno.

Oh, oh, p.s., I will add pictures as soon as I find my chord ( <<< however, you spell that word!...hehehe....) to download my amazing pix! Love ya, bye, ttfn! =)

No more....

Laptop! Its a very sad day.

I was talking to my mom just the other day and told her about my sad news....and then randomly I told her...what if we gave my laptop a proper burial? (I was half-serious...mostly trying not to laugh and just wanted to hear my mom's reaction; having that I can't see her since she is living in another state)...my mom started busting out laughing pretty hard...and then she got to business. And asked, where should we do its burial? would it be proper? (i'm still trying not to laugh but its becoming difficult) I responded, well, it will have to be here since I don't have the money to send it there. And well, it did live a long and prosperous life.

We both couldn't help it anymore. I had waited to long to not laugh and just let it all out.

Ironically, I found a newspaper add on the Deseret News that Carl's Jr had a proper burial for there toilet paper. Dude, that was hilarious. And they gave customer's that actually came to the burial a toilet cleaning agent because apparently that's what the toilet loved to be cleaned. I almost fell of my chair laughing, I could not control my laughter. And by the way, I was reading this while I was at work. The story titled grabbed my attention...lmbo!!! =P Silly people!

Well, I gotta go, I'm doing good! Hope you are too!!

Love ya-
me

Apologizing.

So, I feel bad if I have been complaining a lot lately. I can't remember complaining a lot but if I have. I'm really sorry.

So, with my previous blog. To answer anyone's question... my parents decided to separate. Now, if you really want to know what else is happening with them....well, I'm in the have no idea stage. Because I really don't have any idea whats up. So, thats the pain.

Other than that, I have been really keeping myself busy.

I do have to say, last semester was not a good semester for me. One I got mold in my room, for two, I kept getting really sick...which equals missing a lot of school, work and test for school. And the fact that I didn't have insurance did not help my situation at all to show proof of why I was so sick. Now why I say that, is because I am on probation at school because I failed one of my classes and I have a student loan. This, by the way, really sucks!

So, right now, I am trying to work with my school something where I can get myself out of probation. So far, I don't know what's going to happen. I know its all on the Lord's hand and I will leave it up to him what will happen. I know I wasn't all that motivated in class either which doesn't help at all. What do you do? Try harder and push yourself more.

Well, other than that, last weekend was AMAZING!!! I love being in the Temple. I had an AWESOME time being inside the Temple. And can I just say, I love it? Cause, well, I DO!! The Temple is the BEST place on earth! So AMAZING!!

I love that, though, the difficult times, Heavenly Father still gives me a chance to experience some amazing things. Oh, and now I am an Relief Society Teacher in my Ward, yay, for callings! Which that reminds me, I should probably go look for the schedule to see when I will be teaching next....woops. I will do that right after this.

Well, other than that's it. I have been having an amazing last week and will be more AMAZING when I go to the Temple again!

But for now, I need some rest. So, have a good night! =) Sleep well and don't let the bed bugs bite.

Love ya,
Vee

"Dance like no one is watching. Sing like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt and live like it's heaven on Earth."
— Mark Twain

Pain...

It hurts. Its not fun, I know its not meant to be fun. It painful. Its hurts more when you know its coming only because Heavenly Father prepares you for it and you cry all day because you know and you pray it doesn't come but it needs to because its for the best. And though your hurting all over, you wonder what to do with yourself? Where should I go? How can I be numb to this? What can I do to make things right? But you don't have an answer to any of the questions but still think if them regardless.

But then yet you try to deal with it and take life by its horns. Can it get easier? I hope so.

P.S. If you really want to know whats happening, call me.

Kids...

So, as I am visiting my family and friends. I realize that one of my friends little niece loves me a little too much.

Ok, what happens is that we are all watching a movie and I am sitting on the long coach with my friends little niece of 4 yrs of age. So, at first we are watching a family movie called Scrooge and she decide's that she at first lay down right next to me and give me directions as to what way she looked. If she looked forward she wanted to be tickled but then if she looked to the side to stop tickling her. It was really just plain silly but kids are silly. So I did just that tickle her when she was looking forward and then to the side I would stop. She was having a lot of fun. I kinda adapted her as my little niece. Well, at one point, she decided she was going to stand up on the couch and I was not at all paying attention to what she was doing and I was watching the movie. Well, while she was standing infront of me she decide's she would toot (aka-let out some gas). Of course, I didn't smell it at first but as soon as she said "hahaha, I farted." I noticed the smelly fragrance she had left me. To that my reply was...."hey, I don't like those smelly fragrances as gifts. They aren't very cool." She was laughing pretty hard covering her mouth of how she had thought she made something so funny. I'll admit I was laughing. It was silly, silly kids.

Her mom wasn't home to say anything but when she did get home I told her jokingly that her daughter needs to leave better presents to others. It was funny. The whole room of people were laughing because of what was said. She apologized embarrassed by what her daughter had done. I told her not to worry, this is not the first time this has happened. Remember, I have a small little nephew that does that always when its unexpected and he does it to anyone. Boys will be boys. Anyways, that was just what one funny thing that happened.

Let the Good Times Roll...

So, I went to work yesterday and something triggered a funny memory. I love it! And I found myself laughing to myself because of the funny memory that I had to get a book to chuckle so no one could tell what was going on..hehe...

I laugh even now because there is nothing that they can do about me sharing the moment of sheer joy!

So, my room mates and I were on the way to FHE (Family Home Evening) for a lesson on Christ and then the person that teaches the lesson then shares with us (their peers) their testimony. And well, it was starting to get late to arrive to FHE. And well, I was up front and my friend J was sitting in the back, we were all talking and everything was going great. Well, then we had barely miss the green light and my friend decides to make two rights to instead of waiting for the light to go straight. J and I, were thinking the same thing... "she's crazy" and "that was so illegal, man, she's lucky nobody (well not really nobody) but no one had notice what she had done!" So, me using exaggeration and trying not to bust out laughing said to her..."well, umm, I had no idea two rights make a straight." At this point, I'm struggling and J could see my point and just started laughing and well, we all just busted out laughing out loud so hard that when we arrived to our destination, we all were struggling to get out of the car.

Ok, so, its not as funny when you read it...its one of those you have to be there moments. But at any rate, she will never live it down...and she knows it. So, when we are all being serious and I can't always help myself I'll say something dumb...and I will use the line, "so, hmm, two rights make a straight," and its only when she's around and we can enjoy our moment of silliness.

At any rate, I was also thinking of my sweet little nephew. He is sooo proud to be my nephew, he keeps telling me when I am with him "you better show my picture to everyone." So, I will. Apparently he joined the vampire club awhile ago:



Well, while I was visiting my family, we my parents, my sis Claud and my nephew Fabian and I went to Kohl's and he was feeling like asking for toys...like most kids do...and well, he got the toy that he wanted of course. But what was funny was what he said, now where he had learn this? I have the slightest clue and it totally surprised me. When I would tell my nephew to do something he would reply with saying..."ok, mamacita, bonita, chiquita, senorita." And it was just so funny. I love that kid! His a fun little one. I enjoy being around kids, I become a little kid, I know I'm a kid at heart. So, at any rate, that's all I got.

Well, thank heaven's for families! They are amazing and fun to be around! I am sooo grateful for my family and for their love and for taking care of me! And for always just being sooo AMAZING! I LOVE THEM!

-Love-
me

Sickness madness...

Well, here I am at home sick. I'm close to loosing my voice and I'm wishing I would be feeling healthy. My throat hurts when I cough, my nose is all congested and no matter how many times I blow my nose there is still guck in there and I'm still having sleeping. Everyday is a different story it seems. I was at work on Tuesday and I had the case of the sniffles, ya know the annoying one's that just won't go away...yup that was me. I come back on Wed. to work, oh, those sniffles were not budging...they were worse. I had gone to work both days on almost little or close to no sleep at all. Thur. comes around my body is aching...at that point I was feeling like I'm an OLD person, any movement hurt and dang, going up the stairs was a hassle. I still made myself move around of course, even after being lecture to get some rest 20 times....haha...I'm a stubborn child. Ok, then Frid, I also got lectured yet again to get some rest, I finally gave in and gave up. I slept probably a good 12 or 13 hrs.

Then Sat. comes around and I'm feeling pretty alright but still not the strength to look remotely nice so I go to my mentee's house in sweats and I also go do the laundry. Today, well, lets just say my stupid cause of the sniffles came to its fullest upon awakening and spitting out junk along with hard coughing and lots of pain from the throat area.

To say the least, I HATE being sick!! I HATE taking medication but I'm gonna take some so I can survive today at church. This should be interesting.

Besides all that crazyness, that's pretty much how lame-o my week has been. I wish I had something better to report.

Well, actually I might just have one or two things or a few. I got to go see my family for Thanksgiving and well, it was a LOT of fun! It was nice to see my nephew again, my mom and dad, some of the siblings and everyone else.

My nephew is one of the cutest kid on earth, and I know I'm being his auntie and most aunt say that their nieces and nephews are the cutest kids on earth but whatever, my nephew is sooo cute! I have some pictures that I will add of him being silly. Well, I hope you have a wonderful day!

I know, I'm gonna try to.

Love ya-
Veronica