Hearing...

Ok, well, I let me face the facts right now. I'm losing my hearing. And, well, boy let me tell you it sucks! There are noise's I use to be able to heard really well, like high pitch sounds and little creeks and such. But now, I can't hear them anymore well maybe a little but for the most part I have a hard time figuring out what it was making the noise. It scares me. I am gonna be making an appointment with an audiologist so they can tell me; what in the hey is happening to my hearing? Now, I am not just saying, "I'm losing my hearing" because I want to but its because its t-r-u-e>> TRUE. I notice that more and more I have been saying "What?"... "No tell me."... "what did you say?" ..."seriously, tell me!!"...."Dang it, I can't hear! So, tell me already and I'll stop bugging the heck out of you. Sheesh." I have been throwing tantrums because I can't hear what people say sometimes, and when they talk to me sometimes I have to really try to hear what's being said to me and I try to get closer to the person but without any avail. It bother's me so much that I can't hear some noises or hear what people try to say to me in a whisper and that I keep having to say "what?" and then, I have to try EXTRA hard to listen to what is being said.

I guess its a good thing that I am majoring in Sign Language and that I would like to be an Interpreter... and hopefully it won't be me needing an interpreter. I guess, I really haven't thought about it all that much. I mean, I did bring it up to my mom's attention and she just told me that to not lose my hearing so in response I said, "I'll try not to, mom. I'll try not to." I was very sad when I said that. I think it will be a sadder day when I actually get results but it will be good that at least I know what is going on with my hearing. I don't want to have to get a hearing aid but I might need one. I need to bring this problem to my family about my hearing, I want them to know what is going on because to be honest I would love to still be able to communicate with my family. And I hope that they will be willing to learn sign language if I lose my hearing completely.

I pray that it doesn't happen. I also pray that I will become better at Sign Language just in case, its a great back up plan. Please pray that I can find the right help I need. Thanks. =)